Heavy-hearted in the Midwest since 2011
This where those strange and funny things end up. Just because…
A three day weekend is a weekend to rejoice. Fit in extra movies to watch, places to hit up, and fun meals to plan. More time for records, playing guitar in the studio, and hanging out with the family. They’re those weekends that really make you appreciate an extra paid day away from the 9 […]
Read More Can You Hear Me Now?More than wealth, success, and a general sense of being important in some capacity, growing up the only thing I ever truly desired was a place to call my own. More important than going out with friends or going to the mall was having a space in this world that I felt safe. A corner […]
Read More In My RoomOn Monday I turn 46-years old. It’s a rather anti-climactic age. It’s not 40-years old, or 30-years old. It’s certainly not 18, 16, or 13-years old. And you’re still a hell of a ways off from 65 or 80-years old. It’s just a 4 of hearts or 5 of spades in a deck with kings, […]
Read More Forty-SixOver the summer one of my best friends moved from Northeast Indiana to Virginia. He bought a house sight unseen, packed up his Toyota Matrix with his clothes, art supplies, and his two dogs, and in two trips was moved in. He sends me updates on the place; repairs, renovations, building a fence to keep […]
Read More Dreams of walks and adventuresLeaving high school in 1992 there was still the feeling that even if you weren’t cut out for four, six, or ten more years of academia you could still find a job. Not just a job, but something that could sustain you. Then maybe even sustain you and your significant other. Eventually, you could even […]
Read More The Death of the Working StiffWhen I was 19 I started working at an orthopedic company, in the orthopedic capital of the world. I was fresh off a stint driving a truck for a local paper delivering bundles of weekly issues to route drivers. The driving job felt like the first real “adult” job I’d had. Prior to that I […]
Read More Sitting here waiting for the Lord to come…I think I’ve hit that point. I think I’m officially done with social media. In-particular, I’m done with Zuckerberg. I’m done with all the over-sharing, the self-congratulations, the social commentary, the Russian memes, the American memes, and the inarticulate points on politics and religion(both right and left). In general, I’m just tired of all the […]
Read More TMII can feel a bit of a sea change happening with me, musically speaking. I’m feeling myself looking and searching for new sounds to feed my head. I’m starting to get numb to the “usual stuff”: electronic, synth, Krautrock, ambient. Those vibes I’ve been feeding my brain for the past few years. It’s this steady […]
Read More Opening Your BrainI was listening to Marc Maron’s WTF Podcast yesterday on a 3.5 mile walk on what was the first day of the 2019-2020 school year. In his opening monologue he spoke about a performance recently where it took place in what had been a high school. They’d turned classrooms into office spaces and were using […]
Read More High School DreamsMan, this has been a weird summer. This is the first summer where it didn’t feel like a house with kids and two working parents. It’s felt like a house with adults and almost-adults doing adult things; like working, getting wisdom teeth removed, arguing, bickering, buying new appliances to replace broken ones, looking for a […]
Read More Summertime Blues