cemetery walks and the melancholia of life

It was a busy day at work yesterday. It’s been busy all week, and my absence from here shows. Between the nonstop flow at work and then walking after work, by the time I get home and get dinner cooked I’m just ready to melt into the couch and watch a couple episodes of something […]

How John Got His Groove Back

Prior to starting anxiety meds my biggest fear was that the pills were going to somehow muffle my creative drive. Like they were going to rewire my brain in a way where I had no interest in making things; art, music, personal asides here on the old blog spot, or anything for that matter. As […]

“I love the smell of Canadian wildfires in the morning”

Photo by Wayne Wastaken of Collins in Ontario I drove to work yesterday morning in a low-lying fog. I didn’t think there was supposed to be a cold front coming in that would cause fog, but what did I know? I’m not a meteorologist. I got to work and stepped out of my car into […]

“I’ve fallen(but I was able to get up with a little help)

Early last Thursday morning I woke up at 3:30am because I had to go to the bathroom. Those fellas over the age of 50 out there should know this feeling well. A side effect of all these BP meds I take is that I get dizzy and lightheaded if I get up too quickly, even […]

“Paranoia time”

If you were a metal fan in the 80s then you were quite familiar with “The Big Four”. “The Big Four” meaning Metallica, Slayer, Megadeth and Anthrax. My older brother introduced me to Metallica’s Master of Puppets and Megadeth’s Peach Sells…But Who’s Buying? the same summer, summer of 1987. I knew of them, but had […]

The Good Old Days?

The good old days. That can mean a million things to a million people. What were the good old days? Were they when you were in your 20s and going to concerts every weekend? Partying with friends and getting home in the wee hours? Or was it when you were a kid playing with Star […]

Keeping A Family Tradition Alive

It’s been a busy week. Tuesday I had an early doctor appointment in Fort Wayne to have a CTA, which is a CT scan of my heart. They run a contrast dye into my blood, which is the weirdest sensation as you feel this warmth go over your whole body. It only lasts about a […]

walks are therapy

Man, I’ve missed my walks. Walking was always two things for me; one it was obviously for my physical health. I was never an athlete, unless you count backyard Badminton. I was a very physical Badminton player. But then following it up with a 64 oz Mountain Dew and a Jeno’s frozen pizza pretty much […]

I feel like I lost a winter

These months are cruising by. We’re already heading into the last bit of June and I feel like I was in a haze during the winter of 2025/2026. The halfway point of 2026 is just a couple weeks away and I’m feeling like someone accidently hit the fast forward button on time’s remote control. A […]

Chrome Weekend

Any time away from work is a good time, so the weekend was better than being at work. Unfortunately my wife was sick all weekend(still is.) She gave her boss a ride to work a couple days last week and her boss was getting over a vacation cold, and shared it with my wife. By […]