Been A Minute…

Man, it’s been a whirlwind of a few days. From early last week’s series of surprise anxiety attacks, to finding out my grandma passed away Saturday, to an arctic blast of sub-zero temps. If there’s one thing I can say is that it’s not been a boring few days. Friday morning my brother had an […]

Hello Anxiety My Old Friend

For the last five days I’ve been dealing with my good old friend anxiety. It started Thursday when I hurt some muscles in the middle of my back, which if you’ve had muscles between you shoulder blades get injured you know your whole upper torso hurts. Radiating from back to front, giving your brain something […]

Funk #4,999

The brain is a tricky beast. You don’t often think about the brain getting fatigue, much like say your calves or forearms after a strenuous workout. Or hell, maybe you do. I don’t, anyways. I’ve been dealing with anxiety and panic attacks for over 10 years now, so I’ve gotten used to what they feel […]

“This Is A Dangerous Place…”

Man, I don’t know. If there’s some legal action that can be done to stop the shit show currently going on in this country I wish they’d pull that rabbit out of their hat and do it. How long do we need to wait before something is done? I’m not a fan of conspiracy theories, […]

Watch For Deer, Hello Anxiety My Old Friend, Rocky Mountain Way

A couple weeks ago my wife was heading home in the evening after going to our daughter’s place when a deer ran out in front of her. The deer took off, but left some hair and some damage on the right front hood, grill, and fender. It could have been a hell of a lot […]

Mother’s Day, Birthday, Three Day Weekend, Burn Out

This was one of those rare three-day weekend situations where I am ready to go back to work. Don’t get me wrong, it was a decent three day weekend, but I feel pretty burnt out right now. Our oldest came home late Saturday afternoon. They were off work from Sunday thru Tuesday, and their birthday […]

Good Old Anxiety

It’d been quite a long time since anxiety decided to rear its ugly head and give me a good mental lashing, but yesterday was my (un)lucky day. My work partner was off yesterday, so it was just me. We’d already been hit hard on Friday with two or three days worth of work easy, so […]

Just Sad Dreams Lately

I can tell I’m holding a lot of existential angst in me. It’s coming out in my dreams. Been a bit of a kaleidoscope of internal and external noise – real, imagined, metaphoric – echoing in my head and I haven’t quite let it out. You can tamp it down into a nice, small imagined […]

I’m Just Not Cool Anymore

I think there’s a pretty cool argument to make that I was, in fact, never cool. I wouldn’t put up a fight in that argument. But when you’re a dad and for almost two decades you -raise, nurture, intentionally play the clown for a laugh, build blanket forts in the living room, watch Disney cartoons […]

Everything Reminds Me Of My Mortality And Other Fun Revelations

Monday night I noticed our 11-year old dog was starting to limp. I’d gotten home from work and he seemed his fine, his over-excited self yelling at me as soon as I walked through the door for his treat. This is what we do; this is our ritual. As soon as I get home he […]