19th Nervous Breakdown(Going On 20)

It was a weird week. Hell, it’s been a weird last few months if I’m being honest with myself. The pandemic uncovered a lot of latent anxiety in me that I didn’t know how close to the surface it actually was. Surprising moments of panic and worry that would hang out for a couple days. […]

I Don’t Remember How To Smile In Public

People are getting shots, and masks will be coming off. How do I smile in public anymore?

Radio

Back in October the family and I took our annual vacation. Typically that falls in June/July, but thanks to the world shutting down in 2020 we decided to get away in late fall. Sure, the pandemic was still running hot and heavy, but our vacation was being spent in a cabin in the woods of […]

Perspective

A guy died at work yesterday. I didn’t know him. He was a contract worker who had only been at our facility for a couple of weeks. He was on the shop floor running one of the CMM machines. I barely know a handful of machinists, and ones I’ve worked with(generally speaking) for the last […]

Writing Music Again, Creative Space, and Tamping Down The Dread…

Lately, creating music has become a fun thing again. For quite some time I’ve felt like I’ve just been treading water musically, so to speak. The process of writing and recording had always been my favorite thing; micing amps and drums, getting levels, finding that perfect tone, and making what I heard in my head […]

Friday Night’s Alright For Videos

The concept is nearly non-existent nowadays, but there was a time when streaming your entertainment was merely a strange science fiction novella. A Twilight Zone or Outer Limits episode. This was the same time when a satellite for television wasn’t some oversized frisbee you tacked onto the side of your house or on a four-foot […]

My Place Or Yours : The Art of the Sleepover

There’s a lot to reminisce about regarding one’s childhood. Holidays, family trips, Sunday visits from grandparents, the out-of-nowhere toy purchase, and a dozen other things I could mention. But the one thing I truly miss about growing up was the sleepover. That night when a pal stays over at your place and you get to […]

Big City Dreams and a Shoe Box Full Of Cups

My oldest has settled into the big city nicely. It was just a week ago that she moved into her apartment on the Upper East Side of New York for her 15-week college internship. As far as I know, she’ll be working for a small publishing house going over manuscripts. Maybe editing them? I wasn’t […]

Post Holiday Dread…Feelin’ It, Man

I feel like I’ve been working towards this for awhile now. Probably since October. It seems like one thing after another has been piling up, leading to some massive mental and anxiety blowout. We got back from vacation in October and found out the transmission was shot in our van, so that was a couple […]

January 1st, 2021

So does it feel different? Did you wake from last evenings fun and boozy bubbles and feel as if a new leaf was turned? The light a bit brighter and the heaviness a bit lighter? Yeah? No? I woke to the sound of tapping at my bedroom window. It was sleet hitting the glass at […]