14 years, Music For Dealing With loss, Four-Legged Friends

I try not to take up too much time on here talking about MY music, as in music that I make. I prefer to keep this a place for my thoughts on the music I listen to and soundtrack my life with. And yeah, I’ll occasionally talk about movies and books as well. I put […]

His Final Drive Home

Got a call from the vet yesterday that Otto was ready to come home. Yes, Otto is gone. But we had him cremated and put in an urn. I couldn’t fathom bringing him home and burying him. My dad did that with my childhood dog Klaus, but I just couldn’t. I mean, what if we […]

Sitting In The Sadness

The first weekend without our Otto was rough. My wife and I got out of the house Saturday despite my wife dealing with a cold and my occasional trip into anxiety. The emotions come flooding into my brain like someone opening a faucet. It feels like my head starts spinning despite feeling like it weighs […]

RIP Mr Pooch McGooch: 2010-2024

This has been one of those things I’ve been dreading for months. So I suppose you could say that deep down I knew it was coming. Yesterday morning we had to give our goodest boy Otto some final peace. Standing around a small table with a warm, fuzzy blanket covering it my wife, my son, […]

Baby J And The Reason For The Season

I’m not a religious person. I grew up in a house with the vague understanding that there was a God that would smite you if you didn’t behave, so you always tried your best to be a good person. What does that mean to be a good person? Think of others over yourself, help a […]

Hutch

I’ll still catch myself checking old conversations and emails between my friend Mark and I. They weren’t as often as I wished they’d been, but what we had were insightful, funny, and I looked forward to them as if they were conversations with a long lost brother. Mark was six years older than me, the […]

Death Makes Caricatures Of Us All

It’s a weird statement, but in my head a true one. It’s not something anyone said per say, but something generally close to what was mentioned in passing. It’s also both metaphorically and literally the case. We live our lives and create a perception of who we are. If we’re honest in our day-to-day lives […]